I feel like people who are nice to me I like a lot are threatened by someone I know.
I feel at a disability if I can’t be friendly with anyone.
Something that’s really doing it is, being monitored in private via little cameras, I am feeling stress all over my brain, like I could get in social trouble for accidental thoughts. It feels like I’m trapped in some way again, a way I feel in Orlando sometimes. It’s like I’ll be buzzed inconveniently like I’m bad if I start to feel good. I don’t know what exactly is the cause, though, of my extreme unhappiness and feeling so badly.